Cause even when I miss you, you’re still not missing me…
Q:I was wandering around on tumblr and went on your blog. I like your main blog and your personal blog alot. You have good taste in music and all~ I would have put this on your main blog but...I'd prob too blind to find the "Ask" button xDDD
Haha, thanks! I think this is the first compliment I’ve ever gotten on my tumblr and I’ve had a tumblr for two years already. LOL. Thanks again :D
I don’t believe you ;
So from all the love I’ve given to you, for all the things I’ve done and sacrificed for you, in the end it means nothing to you. I don’t know if you’re heartless to that extent or if you’re doing what you think is best for me. But let’s just be clear, this isn’t making my life any easier than it is right now. I’m already broken and because I trusted you with my heart too soon, my broken heart has broken into more pieces than I ever thought it would. Because I gave you my heart too soon, I’m paying the consequences. I don’t understand how much love people put into one person just gets crushed with 2 sentences. I don’t know what you’re trying to do here, but I still believe that you love me whether or not it’s true. I refuse to accept the fact that after all those years, you’re just going to throw me away like I was just a toy to you. I refuse to believe that you’d do this to me. Please tell me you still care. Please tell me you still love me…
Dear Val & Chan ;
Please do not have any more babies… First of all, you have no time for any of your children whatsoever. Second, I’m overwhelmed by them because I’m the one who has to care for them and teach them all this shit when I’m already stressed about school. Third, seems to me that one is lazier than the other which makes the one less intelligent from the other. I don’t want to spend all my time forcing them to do something they don’t want to do because it’s a waste of my time towards studying and doing homework. I actually want to get somewhere. Not in teaching but in the language field, so do me a favor and don’t have any more kids. You obviously don’t know how to take care of any of your children.
3/9/12
It hasn’t even been a month yet and I’m missing you. I’m missing you so much that sometimes, it hurts. Everyday in school I talk about you because that’s what keeps me going. Sometimes in class, I end up daydreaming away about you. Instead of paying attention to what the teacher is teaching, I drift away. I wish I’m where you are or you are where I am sometimes. I get lonely when I have nothing to keep me occupied. I get jealous sometimes when I walk down the hallway in school and see couples holding hands together. I keep thinking to myself that that is never going to happen with us. I’m never going to experience that high school love because you and I are so far away. But what I have experienced is greater than anything. You gave me that. You gave me the magic that I’ve longed for. Because of you, I’ve experienced so much in such little time. I’ve felt so much. When he couldn’t make me happy, you appeared in my life and gave me that happiness. You gave me the wonderful butterflies that I didn’t mind. You gave me that feeling of being wanted and being loved. But most of all, you gave me love. You stole my first kiss and took my breathe away. To be honest, you’re everything I’ve wanted in a guy if you take out the fact that you smoke. Drinking.. I’m okay with as long as you don’t overdo it. But other than that, you’re everything that I’ve ever wanted and need. I know for a fact that I can trust you with all my heart and that whenever I need you, you’ll be there for me. Like I said, whenever I need you most, you come around and save me.
I don’t know what it is but every time you make me smile, I can’t stop smiling. There’s just something about you that keeps me smiling. Is it that I love you so much that when you say something sweet, I feel happy? Or is it that you just have that little dose of magic that every girl has dreamed of or wanted in a guy? Whatever it is, I like it. I like how you make me smile so much that my cheeks hurt afterwards. I love how you make me look like an idiot when I’m out in public and I end up thinking about you and smiling. I also love your fail English. I love that you’re all mine. No one else’s, just mine. Although I said that the two years will pass quickly, I’m not so sure myself. Will it pass quickly or will it drag on? Either way, I’m looking forward to seeing you again and being able to touch your hand and be by your side. I’m waiting for that one day..
Don’t make me regret loving you ;
I trust you. I trust that you’d do the right thing. Don’t break my heart after I’ve given it to you. Don’t make me regret believing that we were meant to be. Don’t make me regret giving you my first kiss. But mostly, don’t make me regret loving you with all my heart. Don’t leave me hanging. I know that you’ll do the right thing and stay faithful. It’s hard for both of us, but I know we’ll both keep fighting til the end. It’ll all be worth it in the end. Just stay strong. ♥
Baby I’m missing you ;
I miss your presence. I miss your voice. Damn I miss everything about you. Why do we have to be so far apart? Why is it that I have to wait so long just to be with you again? I’m not willing to wait so long to see you. I need you now. You’re the only thing keeping me going right now. I just want to let you know something: 因为我遇见你，我的世界亮了很多。自从我爱上你，我什么都没有想过，只想过你。我终于找到我的配对。亲爱的，我爱你。
That awkward moment…
That awkward moment when you leave facebook on and do other stuff and people you don’t want to talk to IM you on facebook. Derp… Seriously guys? Stfu, I don’t like you and never will and for the other one.. I don’t want to be your best friend. I don’t know you and you’re a little creepy. You both are, kthnx. Please stop creeping on my facebook page and telling me I have a nice dp 5 seconds after I changed it.
Why ;
Why is it that whenever I’m bored or have nothing to occupy my mind, I miss you? I miss you every second of every day. I miss you til my heart starts to ache and tears start to fall down my eyes. I miss you so much. I can’t be strong for you anymore, I just can’t… I need you here by my side. I’ll do whatever it takes to get high school to pass by quickly just so I can be with you. It doesn’t matter what people tell me that I should make the best out of my high school years. They will never compare to the times I spent with you. I can be myself when I’m with you. I’m finally happy when you’re around. Although you make me nervous and make my heart skip a thousand beats, it’s still the best feeling ever.. I miss everything. I miss you calling me nicknames, I miss your cute texts, I miss your voice… I miss talking to you. I need you. Just tell me how to get through this because I honestly don’t know how you’re doing it.
No matter how far you are from me, I’ll always love you.
It doesn’t matter that you’re halfway around the world.. As long as you love me, my heart will always be yours. I’ll always be your silly girl. Two years from now, we will have our happy ending. ♥
